The Power of Vacation

I ended 2015 with the attitude of, "F&*k it, I do what I want." After a year, of doing things to set myself up for a healthy pregnancy and future child, and then having that not happen, I commissioned 2016 as "Jewel's Year of Fun."  This is exactly what I told my transplant nephrologist when I told him I was taking my second vacation of the 2016 in March.  Yes, my second.

Thoughts on That Time I Was Pregnant

I was pregnant once.  

That’s the thing about miscarriages and women who have them.  Unless you knew me personally, or asked if I was pregnant, or saw me in the final days of my pregnancy, with a belly about the size of a soccer ball, you wouldn’t know that I was in fact a pregnant lady for about four to five months of 2015.

On Hiatus

2015 was sh*t.  And that's not an understatement.  

And I don't want to leave you guys hanging, waiting for a new blog post, especially when I don't plan on publishing one anytime soon.  

I have loved writing about my health situation(s) and sharing my life with you.  Right now, I'm going to go out and, hopefully, find that elusive thing called healing.  

Healing is freedom from worry.

Healing is to live and not pretend to live.

Healing is gratitude.

Healing is balance.

Healing is letting go.

Healing is the energy of now.

~Terri Guillemets

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A Great Message for the Year's End

Hey World!  I want to share with you something that I'm really loving lately. 

I've hinted at this recently but in case you didn't know, this has been the worst year of my life...HANDS DOWN.  Yeah, I know!  We didn't think anything could top the first part of 2013.  But no, 2015 takes the cake.  Many people are sad or stunned to see that we are officially in December now, and not June or April.  Not me. I am thrilled.  Quite possibly, overjoyed that the year is coming to an end.  SEE YA. 

Recently, I decided to take control of my life again, or at least grab the reins on the things I do have control of. Mainly, my day-to-day happiness. In a time where so much s&*t has happened and keeps happening, it can be hard to find the motivation to enjoy life...to appreciate what you have in spite of all you've lost...to continue living with with a positive attitude...to keep having hope for a bright future.  

I find that the best way to encourage myself is to start the day off with something positive.  Some people pray, read, exercise or meditate.  For the past couple of weeks now, I've been starting my mornings listening to this:  

It's a great song to scream/sing along to in the shower, and it has a great message. It's such a great reminder for anyone, that if you're still standing...if you're able to get out of bed the next day and join everyone in the world...if you're still trying, then that's worth something.  

Whatever you're going through, you will beat this.  You are beating it.  You're still breathing.  You're still alive. You're fighting the good fight, and you're winning.  

"If you're going through hell, keep going."

Winston Churchill

I've taken a long break, and it's not ending anytime soon. I do miss you, and I miss writing for you and sharing my life with you--ups and downs, good and bad.  

Some bad things have happened.  Some good things too.  But also a lot of bad.  

I'm looking forward to a time when I have the motivation/confidence/emotional stability to write it out for you.  

Until then, I appreciate you. And the grace that you're granting me.